A log, an entry…

I am anxious to see results of this new self. I’m not a patient person, tend to be a bit AAD and some would say intelligent. I’ve been called ‘Sheldon’ and C-3PO; lovingly and derisive. Being of the original ‘Star Wars’ generation, it’s hard not to draw comparisons of journeys to those of some of the characters in that series. But, I’m none of them. I am my own person, making my own choices. The Luciferian / Satanic way of individuality, knowledge and personal choice are the building blocks of what I want my second life to become (and no, no relation to the mmorpg).

My outward appearance hasn’t changed. Willfully and fortunately, I have maintained the appearance of my former self. No difference in hair, style of clothes, etc. No desire at this point either. I do have the incredible desire to get a tattoo. In my former life, a tattoo was taboo and evil; you mark your body, “…you’re going to Hell.” Well, at this point, okay. I’ve even decided on the first one I would get; the sigil of Lucifer. Seems cliche, but all my friends who have ink tell me that it never ends. And if this is the beginning of something, I might as well start off with a “no-brainer” first choice. Simple, to the point and start the path on the left foot (intended, but also a military thing…You always start a march or cadence on the left foot).

I may need to be patient…I know I do. I have never felt this way about anything before. The feeling is like waiting to open presents, seeing your favorite ride with no line at the carnival, and that first cum shot after no sex from being in the field for too long. All that and then wrapped into a esoteric desire that isn’t of this world. I believe that is what I am experiencing; if not more. I never felt this way about anything Christian; ever. It was matter of fact; “Yes, I believe…”, or “Of course I do”. None of it was ever with the passion and zeal I feel now.

I’ve never been happier; I have Joy. My moments of frustration or anger are momentary and dissipate like rain clouds, instead of lingering. My friends have commented that “This is honest”, or that “I really needed to make sure you were you”; that coming from two of my most trusted friends. Yes, I am a Satanist and I have Joy in my life because I am able to be me, without reservation.

The Geryne of Satan (from the ONA)

This brief essay will outline a few interesting facts about the terms Satan and Satanism (and thus Satanist), including their historical usage in the English language, and thus may guide the sagacious to an understanding of the geryne [1] of Satan: that the mysterious secret of Satan is the simple heretical, japing, and confrontational reality of being or becoming a Satan.

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The scribes of the Septuagint mostly rendered the Hebrew טןָש ָׂas ὁ διάβολος/τω διάβολω – and which Greek term implies someone who is an adversary and who thus is pejoratively regarded (by those so opposed) as scheming, as plotting against them; that is, the sense is of ἐπίβουλος – scheming against/opposed to (the so-called ‘chosen ones’). Someone, that is, who stirs up trouble and dissent. Only in a few later parts – such as Job and Chronicles – does the Hebrew seem to imply something else, and on these occasions the word usually occurs with the definitive article: Hasatan – the Satan: the chief adversary (of the so-called ‘chosen ones’) and the chief schemer, who in some passages is given a fanciful hagiography as a ‘fallen angel’.

Now, given that the earliest known parts of the Septuagint date from around the second century BCE – and thus may well be contemporaneous with (or not much older than) the composition of most of the Hebrew Pentateuch (the earliest being from around 230 BCE) – this rendering by the scribes of the word Satan as ὁ διάβολος/τω διάβολω is very interesting and indicative given the meaning of the Greek, and supports the contention that, as originally used and meant, Satan is some human being or beings who ‘diabolically’ plot or who scheme against or who are ‘diabolically’ opposed to those who consider themselves as ‘chosen’ by their monotheistic God, and that it was only much later that ‘the Satan’ became, in the minds of the writers of the later parts of the Old Testament, some diabolical ‘fallen angel’.

Thus, it is generally accepted by scholars that the Hebrew word Satan (usually, a Satan) in the early parts of Old Testament means a human opponent or adversary (of God’s chosen people, the Hebrews) [4] or someone or some many who plot against them.

Now, as has been mentioned in several previous ONA texts, in heretical contradistinction to others and especially to contradict the majority of modern self-described Satanists, the ONA asserts that the word Satan has its origin in Ancient Greek.

That is, that it is our contention that the Hebrew word derives from the old (in origin Phoenician) word that became the Ancient Greek αἰτία/αἴτιος – as for example in the Homeric μείων γὰρ αἰτία (to accuse/to blame) or as in “an accusation” (qv. Aeschylus: αἰτίαν ἔχειν) – and that it was this older Greek form which became corrupted to the Hebrew ‘Satan’ and whence also the ‘Shaitan’ of Islam. Furthermore, in the Greek of the classical period αἰτία and διαβολή – accusation, slander, quarrel – were often used for the same thing, when a negative sense was meant or implied (as in a false accusation) with the person so accused becoming an opponent of those so accusing, or when there was
enmity (and thus opposition, scheming, and intrigue) as for example mentioned by Thucydides – κατὰ τὰς ἰδίας διαβολὰς.

Given that, for centuries, טןָש ָׂas described in the Old Testament of the Hebrews was commonly written in English as sathans [5] and thus pronounced as sath-ans (and not as say-tan) it is perhaps easy to understand how the Greek αἰτία – or the earlier Homeric αἴτιος – could become transformed, by non-Greeks, to טןָשָׂ. In respect of this God and this ‘fallen angel’, as mentioned in another ONA text: ” There is good evidence to suggest that, historically, the writers of the Old Testament drew inspiration from, or adapted, older stories, myths and legends about a Persian deity that came to be named Ahriman, who could thus be regarded as the archetype of the Biblical Satan, and also of the Quranic Iblis. Similarly, there is evidence that the God – Jehovah – of the Old Testament may have been based upon myths and legends about the Persian deity who came to be named Ahura Mazda.” A Short History and Ontology of Satan

Furthermore, despite claims by some Hebrew and Nazarene scholars, it is now becoming accepted that the oldest parts of the Old Testament were probably written between 230 BCE and 70 BCE, and thus long after the time of Greeks such as Aeschylus and long after Greek word aitia was used for an accusation. It is also interesting that there is an early use, in English, of the plural term Satans as adversaries, which occurs in the book A paraphrase on the New Testament with notes, doctrinal and practical published in London in 1685 CE and written by the Shropshire-born Richard Baxter: ” To hinder us in God’s work and men’s Salvation, is to be Satans to us. O how many Satans then are called reverend Fathers, who silence and persecute men for God’s work.” Matthew, xvi. 23
In an earlier work, published in 1550 CE, the chyldren of Sathan are corralled with heretics: “Dyuers Bysshoppes of Rome beynge Annabaptystes, heretyques, scismatiques, & chyldren of Sathan.” John Coke. The debate betwene the heraldes of Englande and Fraunce. 1550, g. Givv [Débat des hérauts d’armes de France et d’Angleterre. Paris, Firmin Didot et cie, 1877

Thus, Satan/Sathan/Sathanas as a term – historically understood – describes: (1) some human being or beings who diabolically plot or who scheme or who are opposed to those who [6] consider themselves chosen by their monotheistic God; and/or (2) some human being or beings who are heretical and adversarial, against the status quo, and especially, it seems, against the religion of the Nazarenes.